I have grown
From the boy I was
To the man I am
And I am proud.
I am proud
That I have overcome
The encumbrance of my hardships
And I stand here today.
Have taught me the limitless stretches of my strength,
This strength that has been embedded within the inner most part of my soul,
Intertwined in my genetic makeup.
There have been times,
The anguish of my adversity overwhelms my soul to the point
I merely wish to abscond
From the misery I face,
But there is no relieve as I am bombarded
With destructive souls who find joy
In my downfall
Continuing their attack to further weaken me.
But I will not indulge
Their narcissistic need
To better their illusion to the outside world
And hide the pitiful reflection of their sad existence.
Each morning I wake
I achieve a goal
Because I have not lost my desire
To see my dream fulfilled.
I am here
I am fighting
I will not allow negativity to bring me down,
And when they say I will fail, I remain the one smiling.
I smile because I have seen the depths of my ocean,
I have lain on the floor of its dark heaviness,
And I have been depleted of all energy
At the thought of its great abyss
But I know I will conquer that demon
I know that I cannot be consumed by it
Because I refuse to accept defeat
I have been successful there before and I will do it again.
When I do however
Feel the days are dark
I take a moment to reflect
On the blessings I have.
I have been given a talent I continue to develop as a purpose,
I have been surrounded by a fruitful support system,
I have been allowed to touch another’s soul on an intimate level,
And I thank my Creator for molding this favor into my life.
So I will continue to grow,
I will continue to strive
To achieve my dreams,
And I will never give up.