You may never know what it’s like,
To have all of me,
Because I keep you at arm’s length,
To protect my heart,
From the pain of failure.
I want to look at you through the eyes of my younger self,
When I believed in a happily ever after,
But the hurt that has caused a rift within,
Forcing me to expect that you will leave.
I don’t know how to be loved,
So I find myself asking when,
When will you realize you want something more than what I can offer you?
When will you look turn blank, void of all emotion in your eyes?
When will I wake up, only to find you have disappeared into darkness?
I don’t want to feel this way,
But if I let you in,
Will you stay?
Will you help me believe in a long lasting love?
Will you show me how to let someone love me?
Because if I could have anyone love me,
I’d want it to be you,
I only ask that you not prove my suspicions true.